Man, one just never knows what may lie ahead these days!
For those of you who’ve followed this circus bear show these past months you know it’s been one hell of a ride! A year ago about now things were awesome & getting better by the day, there was happiness again in an empty ol’heart with hopes of an amazing loving & sharing relationship & the fitness journey was even progressing better than any hope previously held then we hit a bit of a speed bump around Christmas but leveled back off & soared again right up until Valentine’s eve then crashed & burned & burned & burned well…ya know!
There’ve been worse days & not SOOO bad of days since. Things begin to look up, one way or another, then ya get kicked in the soul again or surprise! You get reassigned into a position you hate, working for a guy you can’t trust. Then you find a side gig you enjoy, love actually, & they begin talking seriously about making it a full time gig, things begin to look up then…things slow down, they get nervous, conservative & responsible I should say, so the outlook dims again.
Things on the home front seem like maybe there’s some hope & desire of healing after all but then, now & then, all the old maladies pop up from time to time making that hope just seem a sham show in hopes of hanging onto a meal ticket. Ya know, all the same BS it seems everybody’s going through these days!
One pal’s wife hates his job cause he’s always on the road so now they're splitting up, a cool lady from the side gig hates her husband’s job cause it lets him be home too often (WTF?) so she’s prepping to file cause she can’t stand to be around him anymore & yet another close pal loses his marbles over unfounded domestic accusations by his step daughter & nearly blows your head off when you try to stop him from ruining his life by going after the falsely accused, magnum in hand…just another day in paradise right?!?!?
Okay, enough damn whining! Looking at this smoldering train wreck from a nearby bridge, one that’s often seemed tantalizingly inviting these past few months, I’ve come to realize a couple things. (1) this same ol’shit just ain’t working anymore, (2) one way or another, with or without me, things have gotta change!!!
I’ve hung onto the hope of mutual love WAY longer than was EVER realistic & the self inflicted burning pain in my soul that’s caused has been MUCH worse than anything anybody else could’ve EVER inflicted upon me & also because of that unrealistic hope I’ve put up with BS on the work front, in the name of playing it safe, WAY longer than I should’ve, given the fact recruiters are still contacting me regularly from when I was hunting for this job last spring, SOOO time to make some changes!
Now, one of the best deals still on the table involves change, A LOT OF CHANGE! It pays what both my current jobs pay combined, it includes a company provided furnished apartment & company car while allowing me to get back to my passion of making precision parts out of challenging alloys on ultra modern, high tech equipment! WTH have I been waiting for these past couple months while this guy’s been calling?!?!?
Well, there is one little challenge; it involves becoming an ExPat, moving to a mountain top in the Philippines
Time’ll tell but one thing’s for certain; it’s time for things to change & if I drive those changes myself, I’ll have nobody to blame for the outcome but myself! A dear one once told me I HAD to make these kinds of changes FOR myself & it's WAY PAST time I woke the hell up & listened!
It's WAY PAST time to retake control of this train wreck, set'er back on the tracks, fire the boiler, full steam ahead!
Rock on pals & buckle up! This might just get crazier than it's already been but at least there's gonna be somebody at the wheel, foot on the gas mind ya!!!
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