Okay, so that TEARS it!!!

What is the matter with this freaking world?!?!? I know Murphy sucks. I know Satan is a pro but I also know God has a plan! All of the suffering we each endure has purpose. I have to believe that in every hardship there’s a lesson we need to learn but sooner or later we SHOULD have learned enough to know how to live happy lives, or MUCH more importantly CONTENT lives.

We grow up hearing all the “Keeping up with the Jones” crap & come to believe more is always better, bigger is always better & admittedly in many cases it is BUT better isn’t always important is it? If better can only be obtained through the pain or angst of another then HELL NO it’s not always better!

I’m not really sure if ANYBODY even freaking reads these Blogs but if you know me from BodyBuilding.com or even Facebook you know I’ve had a roller coaster year. I’d lived in a dead marriage for 25 years then learned through the sharing, sorrows, challenges, then love & passion that life doesn’t have to suck after all. Well, unfortunately as SOOO often is the case, shit happens & I somehow managed to screw that up not once but twice in less than a year but through it all we’re still friends although it’s SOOO tough knowing where we began, where we got to twice and now being behind where it all began. What tears it for me though is that through the dark times, the downs between the ups, the sadnesses that made the happinesses seem almost unbelievable, were 2 things; (1) How many other great people are abso-freaking-lutely miserable too (not that I consider myself a great person by any means BTW) & (2) How many folks who’d called themselves your friend, who you’d cheered & supported through their ups, downs & crisis that decide you’re now just too toxic, too negative & just walk away, stop replying, no longer communicate. Even some really cool folks who’ve exactly been there in that same damn deep dark emotional hole you find yourself in, who willingly accepted a pat on the back or a lift out of the dark when you were there for them must just forget all about that as they walk off into the sunset.

Last night at the side job one of the 4 MMS owners who had noticed my improved mood over the past day or so asked what had changed & began sharing his tale of 16 year woe, unfatihfulness, step kids from hell, law enforcements & legal entanglements, teen pregnancy, on & on finally shaking my hand & thanking me for listening & giving him hope that eventually we can put these things behind us & learn to use the dark to appreciate the light. THEN moments later, while still at work LOL, I was chatting for a moment on FB with another sufferer who’s gone out of her way to better herself physically & emotionally only to be resented by her husband who’s now become angry, insecure & jealous, assuming she’s on the prowl RATHER THAN appreciating the hard work & dedication she’s shown to better herself & enjoy being part of a happier & healthier life & it hit me! There’s freaking nobody who makes it through life without hitting these walls, NOBODY! We bantered back & forth & in the process of trying to cheer her up I mentioned I thought it ALL had something to do with an apple & a freaking snake & I HATE snakes LOL! She said I did manage to make her smile so the day was worthwhile!

Screw Murphy! Let’s ALL find a piece of happy & frame it in our hearts so when the dark moments hit…we’ve got a smile stashed away for just such an occasion!!!

Rock on pals!!!